If you know me personally, family, good friends, parishioners, Bible study folks, the men at Rayburn, brother deacons here in New Orleans, then you know how much I have struggled with a chronic bad knee for several years now. In September, I finally got the gumption up to agree to total knee replacement, scheduled for December 2nd.
In a most uncharacteristic manner I approached this with the great and sincere hope that this was it; date set, cut it out, replace, rehab through the holidays and the earliest days of the New Year, then move on.
Today I had a setback as one of my blood tests, the one concerning all things sugar, was off the safe scale to endure such surgery. I got the call this afternoon and I tried bargaining with the doctor, let me sign some kind of waiver. Sadly, he was firm and the answer was not now. So I aske today, what about the pain, what about the time carefully accumulated at work to make this happen, how long, what's next? The answer seems to be patience; you need lot's of patience. You also will need perseverance because it is up to me and me alone to get control of my A1C.
So I am very disappointed tonight; I realize this is minor compared to what many of you are dealing with. And it's fixable, provided I, with my other doctor's help, attack this diabetes. I have to deal tonight with the reality that this is my fault, no one controls their A1C but self; and I guess I punted. So I ask you all to pray for me to beat this and to get over the disappointment. Meanwhile, I will work harder and use December for good as we begin Advent and the Christmas season.
Let me feel your prayers.
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